just the thought of You…

Your skin under its fingertips
its body surrendered to Your control
let us please stay right here for just an hour or more
Time to start the day girl He firmly gives a command
sweet moans arise upon its lip
a gentle push one soft whisper yes Sir releasing from His grip
If to simply remain in this luxurious stolen moment
To experience the radiation floating over still lingers in our touch
fill it again with Your fruitful juice
satiated while worshiping You with love and gentle tenderness
Is it possible to actually feel a heart expanding with devotion
seeping from its very soul flooding with emotion
The aroma now penetrating through the heated air
consuming its thoughts wants and desire
begging Him please without saying a word pleading with its flesh on fire
You have taken it places never to have been seen
We started out as a tepid pool of lust
evolving over time into a transformation of trust

                      With every passing day it is left wanting and craving You more                        pleased and honored to be its Master’s submissive little whore

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Come what may…

When there are no words left to speak the candle’s wick begins to sputter

Sudden darkness fills the air with just the moonlight illuminating through a crack

The only sound to be heard are slow paced rotations of one taking the inhalations of the others exhalations  

Enmeshed they are not but rather 2 souls to compliment, bodies intertwined with hearts of desire to keep both wanting

One grows weary from exhaustion of a worrisome existence

The other wrestling and torn determined to hold up a  firm structured frame 

Fear traps the feet unable to thrust forward

Stuck in their familiar place destination unknown but constantly moving

Unload the baggage that weighs down the progress

Let the natural evolving course of events simply fall into position

Pack up the gloves lay to rest the left over residue of doubt

Be amazed by what is being revealed stand in awe trust what is real

Hold fast to what has been laid at Your feet

Love solely with a pure and gentle heart

 

Receive it and believe it let go and let flow…

 

thoughts are strong, words are powerful…

Critical expressions meant to enrich me for betterment

Yet stand all alone when delivered in judgement…

 Pursuant in romance as the beginning stage fades slowly away

To cherish my gifts renders a promise not to sway…

“You made my heart sing with energy that draws me near

A look so propelling from such a beautiful woman

my words no longer clear

Too special a creature extraordinary by any form

A body by definition sensual and warm

Those eyes incredibly piercing the deepest shade of blue

Intellectual and sexy a lady all the way through

 That smile makes me tingle knowing I put it there

Breathless and provocative a treasure I’ll never share

Flirtatious sometimes teasing relentlessly so

Bringing me to my knees directionless which way to go

Offer up protection safe from any harm

Uplifting comes easy take comfort in my arm”

These simple phrases that keep me by your side

Stimulating strokes of my hair make me willing to abide

Firm strong intentions felt in Your grasp

Evoking confidence to inspire respect that will last

Gifts in kind gestures that may appear to You as trite

Unravel my heart that cries out in sheer delight

A flowering bud blossoms its petals while opening slow

Peaking in warm sunlight just beginning to grow

Soothing words offered intently with subtlety and ease

Bring over time and again my willingness to please

the newest me…

How did I get so far behind

Down from the trenches I’ve dug myself out

Sometimes I continue to find myself out of line

Accepting of old shame where a battle may still reside

I have baggage left to unload

Willing to work at it and no longer hide

Keep chipping away my burdens slow to remove

Leaving some wounds and tiny invisible scars

After all they once cut through so much left to prove

I can’t expect the old pain to rush out and come forward

The process is on a continuum basis  

and I am forever moving onward

There is no stopwatch a potion or magic wand

If there were I would wish for one small sip a swift gentle wave

for all that once troubled me surely would be gone

Since time has the only healing power

The virtue of prosperity patience and love  

I must seek from my strong tower

I’ve never managed to escape imperfections or flaws

I wasn’t created as such  

Why then do I tolerate torment it gives me great pause

 Stand back and catch a breath as I ask my heart its true desire 

To always give and receive love

Be honest and true never deceitful or portray a liar

Seek contentment happiness and joy 

Carry it with me let it spill over 

These are the things I can employ

 I know today that I am easy to love 

My barriers are down this heart is receptive

I am being restored from the heavens above

The clock has slowed down giving me such mercy and grace

Memories of old formed my character to be

I’m not who I once was behind this same gentle face 

Look deeper into my eyes the windows to my soul

What you will see if you truly seek to find  

a sparkling new me beginning to glow

Daddy knows…

feed me and You will see me grow

water me and You will see me shine

give me light and You will see me glow

lift me up and You will see me free

plant me and You will see me stand tall

teach me and You will see me be all there is to be

talk to me and You will see me abound

praise me and You will see me bloom

love me and You will see me firmly on the ground

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contentment and craving…

Contentment…

  

“a state of happiness and satisfaction”

this little girl has been on a personal quest in search of it most of her life

she has looked high she has looked low

everyday met with discouragement as she came up against strife

the simplicity of her young childhood gone when she closed her eyes

it was time to grow up hurry now life it had managed to get away

tomorrow brought more of the same skeptics and negative lies

is it no wonder she longs for days of Pooh Bear her blankie and sucking her thumb

life can finally be comfortable because it is chosen to be

feeling so safe and protected with my Daddy Sir today

this little girl can sit still knowing it isn’t solely up to me 

though this little girl’s body has changed her inside craving her to feel

a longing for childhood creatures her soothing state sucking her Daddy’s “thumb”

relaxes His girl delivering her to a level of submission only to Him will she kneel

her strength is not in her holding on but rather in completely letting go

releasing all that she once possessed had a tight grip upon

surrender and relinquish giving Him total power and control

Craving… 

 

“a powerful desire for something” 

in Your presence, Your arms, Your heart…

the day will come when water sinks low

to the bottom of the earth but the wind will still blow

like the pain from the past electrified and true

the subtle fresh daylight shines warmly making anew

this life we’ve encountered a style You unburied from inside

has taken us so deep wrapped up safely for me to hide

this goes beyond under the covers from the blanket You do swaddle me

the plans You have set forth are unveiling surely setting us both free

Sir You always excite me with every ounce of energy surging through my core

my heart races for You my Daddy whom i so adore

never did this little girl dream of these possibilities

that love honor and devotion could bring me to my knees

not caring of others thoughts judgments or opinions this is who i chose to portray

willingly give all of myself to You Sir the only Man i truly obey

gracious is my soul with every inch of my body You take

far beyond measure more than sexual desire and lust the perfect sub You make

with deep passion love and patience a wonderful Daddy depicting His sturdy frame

Your little girl simply melts in Your arms having only You to blame

serving You Sir is a blessing to always give and please

showing my loyalty to You alone putting Your heart at ease

as You give back to me what i never really had or found

a lifetime of missed opportunities You push me harder so my feet can leave the ground

maybe others cannot understand the depths where this can lead

perhaps because many of them won’t allow their hearts to bleed

the escape as it pours out manages my inner commotion

but Daddy it’s only You that comforts and soothes my every emotion

 

 

 

 

she needs to feel needed, used and adored…

please do not suppress my desire to serve You no matter the cost

by doing the things that You have commanded

it confuses me and i feel lost

assure me with Your strength control and power

consistency always running through

like a bird on a ledge of the steepest tower

i belong to You Daddy Yours and Yours alone

no other could measure up

nor claim me as His very own

 

 

i am living in a vanilla world and i am a sub little girl…

because i choose to be, want to be, desire to be…

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his baby girl, His little submissive…

“So, how was your fun weekend away?” “So much fun! i was such a good girl, He told me so, a bunch!” Grinning from ear to ear, my tummy flipped as I thought back over our time away. Remembering how much i pleased Daddy Sir, being His girl He expected and told me He needed me to be. “But he didn’t mean he EXPECTED this and that of you??”  I looked at her with a small grin on my face, not knowing what to say, so I said nothing at all. Here I was finding myself yet again, wondering why I answer a simple question and find judgement on the other side. Biting my tongue numerous times before uttering the words, my Daddy or Sir, forgetting briefly who i am speaking to. What comes so natural to me is required to be censored and i despise that. 

Ah yes, that less than understanding tone coming from a special friend who only wants to see me happy. She sees my glow, my giddy little girl inside exhuming from within, but she can’t relate. i can hear it now, “you did what because He told you to?!” I refrained from sharing once again, holding it in. Being a good little girl is what makes me happy, pleasing and serving my DS as He sees fit. Seeing that warm genuine smile upon His face, knowing that i put it there by being and doing what is expected, means everything to me. It is one of the biggest parts of being a sub that other females just cannot comprehend and that’s ok. 

i have lived that life of a “happy wife makes a happy life”, but that was never accomplished. My control was all that mattered. Pleasing me was what i thought was right. So how come it felt all wrong? i never knew all that was missing. That deep down to be controlled, led, encouraged, held up and protected is what i truly needed and was missing in order for me to submit. Now i am the one who cannot fathom being a controlling wife, a spoiled woman who doesn’t receive discipline and have consequences, or thrive and desire them. 

His constant control and invasion of my mind keeps me in a state of knowing Who i belong to. Every part of me is His, to do with what He pleases, as He chooses always in all ways.