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Going through the motions…
Something has changed and I think it is me
I am not the girl I used to be
once timid and shy
lacking confidence and esteem always afraid to try
invisible I became in a shell I hid inside
the safest place I chose to reside
never feeling a sense of belonging I tried to break free
all I ever wanted was just to be me
choices were a luxury escaping from my life
settling on the things that came no matter what the strife
any power I may have owned was taken without a fight
further disappearing into the darken night
soon to discover it wasn’t others who took my heart
it was my own undoing I gave it freely only to be torn apart
starving for that special affection taking any morsel offered
I’d find myself once again heading in the wrong direction
I gave the desperate need to fill this empty hole
looking back it is becoming clear who broke this wounded soul
a little girl without her daddy simply wanting his protection
couldn’t stand alone again feeling the cutting rejection
losing mom felt the same once more
only this time I would slam the door
with my heart completely shredded how could I believe
that I would ever be worthy of love so deserving to receive
I have grown in strength looking to heaven above
from my Heavenly Father I am filled with love
He has never left abandoned or forsaken
it was I who never leaned on Him until my world was taken
today I pray God please heal the little girl bind up her gaping wound
she never asked for anything more than to feel love please bring it to her soon
as the inside work is being done moved and shifted around
I feel the torment of uncomfortable feelings that God is tearing down
He is lifting me high assuring me now
I will be alright He promises He is showing me how
be patient with Me child is all that I ask
you do the work while I perform the task
through all the emotions the vast array of feelings
the road seems endless to get to the healing
in my life I want peace though daunting and bleak
to be unshackled from my past is all that I seek…